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Mujhe achi tarah Yaad hai jab hum
multan mein reha kartay the .Daddy Government officer the ..hum do bhai hi
hain .mama ek house wife thi …Buchpan ke din bhi kya din the mein chhota sa
tha mama nehla dhula kar mujhe ghar ke bahar bitha deti ..mein chabi wali ek
car se aise hi ghar ke pass khailta rehta …
Ghar ki pichali tarf maghrab ki
tarf ek gali aur thi ..us gali mein ek ghar tha Jehan bahut bara peepal ka
darakht tha ..Us ghar mein Hafiza Amma aur un ki 10 saal ki nawasi(grand
daughter) rehti thi..Hafiza Amma ke ek beta tha ek beti thi …shohar kehin
jawani miein guzar chukka tha ..Amma ne muhalay ke buchaon ko quran parha
kar aur karpay si si kar apnay buchon ko pala tha ..lekin un ka imithan kam
nahi hua tha ..Beta buri suhbat mein par kar kab ka ghar chhor kar chala
gaya tha ..beti ki shadi kar di thi ..mein samjhta hon shayd who din kuch
sukh ke jo Amma ne dekhay hon ge ..Beti ki shadi ke 7 saal baad damaad aur
beti ek accident mein chal basay the ..aur apnay peechay ek beti chhor gaye
the .. ghazal naam tha us ka ..woh apni naani ke hi pass us baray se ghar
mein reh rehi thi …meri umar us time koi 4 saal hogi ..
Mere ghar ke nazdeek wohi ek larki
thi jis se mein ja kar khaila karta who mujh se koi 6 saal Bari thi mein us
ko buchpan se hi ghazal apa kehta tha .woh apnay ghar mein usi peepal ke
darakht ke neechay apni saheliyon ke sath miti ka ghar banati rehti..mein
kabhi wehan jata aur un ke sath khailnay ki koshish karta us ki saheliyan
mujhe dara dhamka kar peechay kar deti ..mein tang aa kar ronay lagta ..khailnay
ko dil bhi karta tha aur darta bhi tha ke kehin ab maar hi na paray ..woh un
se to kuch na kehti mere kareeb akar baray pyar se kehti …aray rotay nahi
hain tu to medha pupoo hai ( tu to mera puppoo hai).yeh keh kar mujeh gaod
mein utha kar apnay pass bitha leti ..aksar yehi hota aur aksar mujeh yehi
sunanay ko milta ke tu to medha puppoo hai..mujeh us ka aise pyar se bolna
acha lagta aur mein chup bhi kar jata aur sath mujeh khailnay ka bhi moqa
mil jata ..
Amma ka humaray ghar ana jana tha
..is liye ghazal bhi ati rehti thi ..mama apna kaam karnay mein lag jati to
ghazal ko hukam suna deti ..aray ghazal beta khalid ko sath le jao aur
khailo ja kar ..mama ko lagta tha ke jehan koi aur bucha nahi hai wehan mere
akelay ke liye ghazal se achi compony koi nahi ho sakti ..woh kabhi ungli
pakar kar to kabhi mujhe gaod mein utha kar sath le jati ..mein dopehar tak
wehin khailta rehta ..mera buchpan aise hi guzar reha tha ..mujeh acha lagta
us ke sath khailna ..dady ka un dino transfer Islambad ho gaya aur hum wehan
se Islamabad shift ho gaye ..wehin dady ne mujeh ek school mein admit karwa
dia ..lekin humara Eid ya bari eid par multan ana jana laga rehta aur meri
sab se pehlay yehi koshish hoti ghazal apa ke ghar jaon aur amma se aur un
se mil aon. Ghazal apa ka andaz waisa hi tha mujeh dekhtay hi kehti array ye
to medha puppoo aya hai ..aur mein yehi sun kar khushi se phool jata ..woh
jaise jaise jawani mein qadam rukhti jati thi ..waise waise hi khoob sorat
hoti ja rehi thi ..lamba qad , gora rang. Kamar par jhooltay huay kalay baal
kali bari bari ankhein . jab woh bari bari ankhain utha kar mujhe dekhti
mujhe lagta is se acha manzar koi nahi hai .woh mujh se kehti bolo na kya
khao ge aur is se pehlay ke mein kuch kehta who khud hi kabhi kheer ya doodh
mein siwaiyan dal kar le ati aur mere sath akar beth jati .hum sath sath
khatay rehtay aur who bolti rehti ..” han to ab batao study kaisi ja rehi
hai .English mein kitnay number aye aur Math mein kaisa reha ..kitnay din ho
yehan koi masla ho to mujeh bato mein tumse senior hon abhi dekh letay
hain..etc etc etc .aur mein har baar munasib jawab dekar chup kar jata ..woh
mere sath bethi hoti kabhi baat kartay kartay un ki tang meri tang se
takrati kabhi kandha mere kandhay lagta ..mujeh yeh kuchi umar ka ahsaas
bahut acha lagta ..un ke balloon ki bheeni bheeni si khusho mujhe bahut
pyari lagti ..mein chup chap betha rehta ..ek jhijhak aur ek sharam ka daman
hamesha mere hath mein rehta mein kabhi us se nikal na pata waqt guzarta
reha aur beach mein kuch saal aise bhi aye ke hum loog multan na ja sakay .Lekin
mein kabhi un ko bhool na saka jab bhi Eid ati mujhe un ke ghar ke siwayin
aur kher bahut yaad ati ..mein sochta ghazal apa hoskta hai meri raah dekhti
hon ..lekin yeh such hai who dekhen na dekhen mein zaroor dekhta tha ke pata
nahi ab kabhi jana hoga ke nahi .mein ne Fsc kar li thi..isi doran daadi
ammi ki death ho gayi ..Multan wala humara ghar akela par gaya tha ..Dady ne
hum sab ko wapis Multan bhej dia aur khud job ki wajah se Islamabad mein hi
reh gaye ..kehtay hain insaan apnay buchpan ko kabhi nahi bhoolta us ka who
sari umar yaad ata hai …mere zehan mein bhi aisi hi kuch yaadain thi
..Ghazal apa , peepal ka darakht , mitti ke kuchay ghar , Eid ke din ,
Ghazal apa ke hath ki bani kheer ..mujhe yeh sab yaad tha…
Wapis anay ke baad sab se pehlay hum ko jo loog milnay aye ..un mein ek
munawar aunty thi who doctor thi aur humaray ghar se kuch door rehti thi .dosri
milnay anay wali ..Hafiza amma thi aur un ki nawasi Ghazal apa thi ..Ghazal
ab jawan ho chuki thi 24 saal ki umar mein us ka rang roop nikal aya tha .woh
ek gori chitto lambay qad ki khoobsoorat larki ban chuki thi ..is mein koi
shak nahi tha jo dekhta ek baar thehar kar zaroor dekhta tha ..woh mama se
baray garam joshi se mili..aur mein kuch faslay par betha hua un dono ko
dekh reha tha .Ghazal apa ne gehray jamni rung ka shalwar kameez pehni hui
thi .un ke goray rung par ye color bahut juch reha tha ..Ghazal apa ne kuch
dair ke baad palat kar mujhe dekha aur boli ..aray yeh to medha puppoo hai .
mein us time ek choti si kursi par betha in ka milna julna dekh reha tha ..mein
ne un ko salam kia unhon ne agay hokar mere kandhay se lag kar khari ho
gayin .. aur boli array kaise ho tum bahut baray hogaye ho aur mein itna sun
kar hi sharma gaya ke Ghazal apa mujh keh rehi hai ke mein bara ho gaya hon
..meri umar us waqt koi 18 ya 19 saal hogi ..un ke sath lag kar kharay honay
se mujeh un ke jisam se wohi bheeni bheeni si khushboo anay lagi .agarcha ke
mein ne koi sexual experience abhi nahi kia tha lekin ek mard aur aurat ka
rishta ab mujhe par raaz nahi reha tha …who jitni dair khari rehi mere sath
mein un ke jisam ki khushbo ko mehsoos karta reha ..dil karta who aise hi
khari rehen aur mein ahist ahista un ko songhta rehon. us din to who kuch
waqt bethnay ke baad chali gayi..hum bhi sab ghar ko set karnay lag gaye .Fsc
clear kar chuka tha Bsc mein admission lena tha Mama ne jab ghazal se baat
ki to unhon ne keha aunty ap pareshan kyun hoti hain ..mein jis academy mein
MSc final year ki tyari kar rehi hon wehan main part time parhati bhi hon to
ap fikar na Karen mein us ko usi academy mein admission dila deti hon…ab
mujhe kya aitraaz ho sakta tha bas ek uljhan si thi ..naya shehar naye loog
mere liye pata nahi kaise adjust karon ga ..lekin ek baat ka sakoon tha ke
chalo ghazal apa to hain na . .ek din ghazal apa mujhe apnay sath apni
academy le gayi ..woh academy shehar ke ek posh area mein thi aur hum se
kuch door nahi thi bas paidal chalain to koi 15 se 20 minut ka rasta banta
tha ..
Pehaly din hi mein un ke sath academy gaya ...mere liye unhon ne khud hi
sara intzaam kar lia aur mujhe ek teacher imran sahib the koi 50 ya 55 saal
ke the un ke huwalay kar dia . academy mein who ek sakht mizaaj kisam ki
teacher thi. such to yeh hai ke un ki personality aisi thi ke mein khud us
se baat kartay huway ghabrata tha ..shyad is ki wajah bhi ghazal apa ki
personality thi....Ghazal apa subah 10 am hi academy chali jati .pehlay khud
parhti baad mein school levels ki classes ko bhi parhati .mein dopaher ke
time jata tha ..lekin hota yeh ke shaam ko sath hum ikethay atay the…woh
rastay mein mujh se batain karti .mein hasb-e- adat han mein han milata un
se batain karta chala ata ..sara din jaise bhi guzray mujh sham ka intzaar
hota ke kab mein un ke sath batain karta hua ghar wapis jaon ga ..un ke
jisam ki khushboo yehan bhi mere sath sath chalti .mein kabhi kabhi raah
chaltay un ke kareeb hota to mujjhe un ko songhnay ka moqa mil jata …lekin
mein aisa jaan bojh kar nahi karta tha .bas mujh se ho jata ..lekin is baat
ka ahsaas ghazal apa ko na ho pata ..kabhi kabhi mera dil karta kash yeh
rasta khatam na ho .lekin aisa kaise ho sakta tha ghar to ana hi hota tha ..
jab hum wapis aa rehe hotay rastay mein ek gali ke ,mor par ek chota sa park
tha..wehin park ke gate ke pass 2 larkay motor cycle lekar kharay
hotay..jaise hi who morr ata ..ghazal apa ke qadam tez tez uthnay lagtay ..ek
larka palat kar ghazal apa ki tarf dekhta aur dosray se koi baat karta aur
dono hasnay lagtay .aur kabhi koi fiqra bhi kas detay .mujeh suchi baat hai
ke pehlay pehal halaat ka andaza nahi tha ke yeh sab kya hai .aur na hi mein
ne kabhi Ghazal apa se pocha tha ..ek din aise hi ham chalay aa rehe the .jaise
hi who ur morr par pohnchi un ke qadam tez ho gaye .mujeh bhi sath dena para
.jaise hi hum un 2 larkon ke kareeb aye .un mein se ek bola “ janu body
guard rukh lia kia ? itna keh kar who zor se hans para dosra bola janu body
guard choot ke liye rukha ya gand ke liye .sath hi woh dono zor se hasnay
lagay ..mein ne dekha Ghazal apa ka itna sun kar un ka rung ur gaya ..mujhe
yeh sab itna bura laga ke apnay ap mere qadam ruk gaye aur mein un ki tarf
gusay se dekhnay laga .ghazal apa ne mujhe ruktay dekh kar peechay mur kar
dekha aur foran mera hath pakar kar boli..chalo khalid in ko bakwas karnay
do..shayd mein chal bhi parta lekin who larkay meri tarf baray aur ek bola”
oye tu dekh kis tarah reha hai salay to body guard hai is ka kya.. is se
pehlay ke mein kuch kehta who mere sar par aa chukay the ghazal apa ne mera
hath waise hi pakar rukha tha ..mujhe dar bhi lag reha tha gusa bhi aa reha
tha .woh dono larkay qad kath mein mujhe se kafi baray bhi the guseelay bhi
..Ghazal apa un ko pass dekh kar waise hi seham chuki thi .ek larka agay
barha aur us ne Ghazal apa ki gand par chutki kaat kar bola “ hum ko time
nahi deti ho aur gusa dikhati ho jaise sari umar apni choot ko sambhal kar
rukho gi..Ghazal apa ki sehami hui awaz sunayi di ..chhoro humain janay do
“. Lekin un ka irada shayd yehi tha ke aaj roz roz ke intzaar ka kuch faisla
karma hai ..mera gusa mere dar par hawi honay laga ..mein ne dono peechay se
apni poori taqat laga kar dkaka dia .woh dono gir gaye
Mein ne gusay mein aas pass dekha
to mujhe kuch dor 2 ya 3 tooti hi eentain (bricks) nazar ayi mujeh aur to
kuch na soojh mein ne ek tukra uthay aur jo larka sab se kareeb tha us ke
sar poori shidat se mar dia .woh larka charka kar wehin gir gaya ..dosra bhi
uth kar khara hi hua tha ke apnay motor cycle ki tarf bhaga ..mera gusa kam
nahi hua mein us ke sar ka nishana lekar who tooti hui eent (brick )us ko
khaich kar mari .yeh mehz ittefaq tha ke who seedha apnay nishany par lagi .warna
mera nishana koi itna acha nahi hai..ghazal apa ke yeh sab dekh kar hosh gum
ho gaye unhon ne mera hath pakar aur takreeban khanichti hui bhag rehi thi
..mujeh hosh nahi tha mei ne kya kar dia ..bas mujeh jo acha laga mein ne
kar dia ..hala ke mein life is tarah ki situation ka adi nahi tha ..abhi bhi
nahi hon..khair hum ghar aa gaye ..Ghazal apa atay hi mujhe par cheekh pari
..” oh tum pagal ho agar who mar jata to .tum ko sharam nahi ati jab mein ne
keha tha in ke monh nahi lagna chalo to tum chalay kyun nahi “ who gusay se
bolti rehi mein sunta reha “ aur ab kharay kharay mera monh kya dekh rehe
ho..jao ghar ayenda tum mere sath mat jana samjhay ..mei chal dia lekin kuch
qadam chal kar mein ruka aur wapis mur kar bola .unhon ne ap ko gandi batain
kyun ki thi ..mujhe jo sahi laga mein ne kar dia who jaise phat pari ..akeli
gareeb larki ki kya zindagi hoti hai tum nahi jantay abhi buchay ho kal ko
ko phir aisa hua to kya tum ksi ka qatal kar do ge ..mein ne waise hi jawab
dia han kardon ap ko jis ne bhi aisa waisa kuch keha us ko maar don ga.
Who hairani se mera chehra dekhti
rehi lekin meri baat sun kar kuch boli nahi ..agalay din wiase bhi Sunday
tha who bhi ghar par thi aur mein bhi …Monday ko mein dobara academy chala
gaya ..shaam ko meri aur Ghazal apa ki mulaqat hui na unhon ne kuch keha na
mein ne lekin hum dono ko paka yaqeen tha ke who dono larkay ab hum dono ka
wait kar rehe hon ge ..lekin humara andaza ghalat tha ..wehan koi nahi tha
..hum dono jaise sakoon se chaltay huay ghar aa gaye ..aur us ke baad kabhi
un ka aur humara samna na ho saka na hi who wehan kabhi nazar aye ....garmiyon
ke din the hum ko academy se 2 month ki chhutiyan ho gayin thi ..ek din mama
ne ghazal apa se keha ..ghazal khalid ke liye koi tution hi rukh do .kam se
kam course to rewise kar le ..Ghazal apa kehnay lagi aray aunty ksi aur ke
pass janay ki kya zaroorat hai is ko mere tarf bhej dia Karen mein rewise
karwa deti hon ..mama ne socha chalo acha hai is tarah ghazal apa ko fees ki
shakal mein kuch help bhi ho jaye gi …Ghazal apa ne mujhe dopehar ko 2
bajaya ka jaya karo..tab tak mein ghar ka kaam complete kar ke free hoti hon
tum ko study ke liye time mil jaye ga.
Mein dopehar ko khana kha kar un
ke ghar janay lag gaya …amma ab bahut borhi ho chuki thi un ko dosray kamray
mein charpai par hi khana de dia jata .kuch aur chahiye hota to who awaz de
deti .jab mein jata ghazal apa kitchen dhoo rehi hoti ..kitchen dhotay waqt
who apni kameez peechay se khaich kar agar shalwar mein phansa leti tak ke
dhotay waqt geeli na ho ..lekin aisa karnay se un ki shalwar tight ho jati
aur un ki gand ke beach phans bhi jati ..mein yeh sab nazar utha kar dekhta
rehta who bethay bethay kitchen dhoti rehti un ki gaand oper neechay jaise
jaise hoti mere dil ki dharkan tez honay lagti ..un ki shalwar peechay se
geeli ho kar un ki gaand se chipak jati .un ki adhi nangi tangain aur un ki
gand dekh kar mujeh ajeeb sa maza ata aur mein yeh manzar ghor se palkay
jhupkay begair dekhta rehta isi tarah fatsh dhotay hue jab who agay ko
jhukti to mujhe door bethay huay bhi un kameez mein jholti hui gori gori
chhatiyan nazar anay lagti aur mein betha betha un ke size ka andaza karnay
lagta .36 hain ya nahi bas yehi hisaab lagata rehta ..lekin yeh nazar bhi
khatam ho jata farsh dho kar who ek dum khari ho jati ..ab un ki shalwar
peehay se hi nahi agay se bhi geeli hoti …mujhe is baat ka bhi andaza ho
jata ke un ki ab shalwar un ki choot se bhi chimti hui hai ..oper dekhnay
par andaza hota ke jaise who haanp rehi hain aur jaise un ke boobs kameez
mein idher udher atkay hue hain who bra bhi nahi pehnti hain …yeh nazara
mere andar hi andar hulchal paida karta rehta aur mujeh apna khoon tez tez
dorta mehsoos hota ..lekin bila shuba yeh ek aisa manzar tha jis se mein
nazar nahi hata pata tha ..raat ko bhi jab mein akela laita hota mujeh who
manzar ankhon mein ghoomta milta mein us se enjoy karne ke liye foran
ankhain band kar leta aur baar baar us ko zehan mein repeat karta |